Obviously, I'm not too keen on this website anymore. To my friends here, I do apologise for that (you know who you are).
The last time I wrote a journal entry, it was almost an exact two years ago. My disinterest in continuing my hobby as an artist has come to full fruition; I haven't produced anything even remotely artistic in years. In addition, I am also slowly getting around to all of the old websites in which I used to frequent and am on a long-term mission to systematically lay my web identity as 'Strefe' to rest (with some exceptions).
Five to six years ago, when I was an adolescent girl struggling in the chaotic hell that is secondary school, DeviantArt was a place of solace for the angry and angst-ridden individual that I was. A lot of people here (mostly those with whom I role-played) helped me through what I now consider to be the darkest time of my life, and I am so, so grateful to all of you who befriended me and indulged my need for an outlet (again, you should know who you are). My identity as Strefe is very intertwined with that time period and now that I am older, wiser, and much more mature than I ever was before, I feel that I really need to extricate myself from what I imagine as the burden of that persona. I've plastered a lot of what I now perceive to be embarrassing opinions and text all over the internet under the banner of that identity, and I would like to kill its connection to me. I think a lot of you should understand the foundations of my concern.
However, I think I shall leave my account here on this website open. The reason for this is owed to my awareness of how some of you whom I regard with much fondness only seem to frequent this one website. It also seems even to me to be a pointless endeavour to create a new account for the sole purpose of communicating with a handful of individuals, however important to me those individuals still are.
The former statement brings me to direct your attention towards my gallery. You'll notice most of my deviations are now in storage. This has a lot to do with what I have been saying regarding my identity as Strefe. However, if any of you from the small number of people I actually know and care about on here would like me to make a particular deviation public again, you may discuss it with me. I warn you now though that I won't be truly open to bringing a deviation out of storage again unless I can be presented with a really good reason as to why I should do so.
These days, I go by a variety of names on a limited number of different websites (such as Twitter and FanFiction.net, to name two) and if you would like to find me, you will again have to talk to me directly (can we send private messages on this site?). I am also still heavily interested in fan fiction and I have a keen desire to write stories of my own. But this is tempered by the fact that I am currently lacking in the ability to write creatively as I spend more time brainstorming than I do coming up with a plot or, you know, actually executing the task of typing up actual chapters. In short, my inability to write is owed to writer's block.
Anyway, to round up this entry, I would like to shout out to all of my old friends from . The team from that group are, and I stress this, the only reason I am still here. I have missed you guys. Please step forwards and say hello soon, yes?